Sick Day

Hey guys, I'm back.

I feel like I've said that line so many times in this blog... I shouldn't have to... but I guess it's just so much easier to blog during vacations, when I don't really have to worry about anything...

Anyways...
I hope you all are doing well.

I should be at school today, but I'm home sick instead. I literally couldn't sleep until two in the morning and then woke up at three hours later... there was no way I was going to be able to function on three hours of sleep at school, so I stayed home. (With my mothers permission of course!)

I really haven't been doing anything...I did take a nap and then I ate breakfast and watched Michael Jackson videos...and then came over to my room to blog.

So I was gone for two weeks because I was out of the country in Mexico visiting my family. It was really fun...REALLY fun. I got to be with all of my cousins and practice my Spanish before the AP test next month.. *bites nails* I'm scared!

Apart from getting sick, nothing really spectacular has gone on in my life... NOT THAT I'M COMPLAINING. It's strange, these past couple of weeks I've come to realize that I'm perfectly content with my life right now. Apart from worrying about some family members that are sick at the moment... I'm just fine and dandy.  It's a good feeling.

So if you haven't heard, The Jacksons are going on tour this summer. One of the stops will be here in LA. I may go. *does a little HUGE excited dance* My mother said that if I raise the grade I have in math class by the end of the year, I can go. *DOES A BIGGER HUGE EXCITED DANCE* Because you know, I've never been to a concert before, and to get to go to a JACKSONS concert as my first one! GO-LLY! Can you tell I'm excited? XD

Yesterday I spent the whole afternoon/night with my parents... We watched the Michael Jackson Home Movies and I don't think I have laughed that hard in a while. They enjoyed it...and you know, it was great for me to see my parents, especially my dad, kinda like, accepting the fact that I love yet another man as much as I do and being totally okay with it because they got to see how... just great this man was. I don't know... I'm kinda horrible at explaining things sometimes.. I guess this is one of those times... sorry!

Dallas (2012) starts next month! I'm excited... So I guess you'll be hearing more about that soon!

For now, I'll go and rest up.

With the love guys, L.O.V.E. Love. *spelled out in the air like Michael would do it*
-Briggitte

Stars That Will Never Fade

Why I Chose This Picture: Because I know that this was her
favorite episode because she got to work with her
cousin and on location, not in a studio.

Name: Barbara Eden

Real Name: Barbara Jean Morehead

Occupation: Actress, Singer

DOB: August 23rd, 1934

Fun Fact: She owns a chocolate labradoodle names Djinn 

Djinn (after Jeannie's dog on I Dream of Jeannie)

Quote: If gentlemen prefer blondes, than I am a 

blonde that prefers gentlemen.

Academy Awards: No Oscars for this incredible talent, but 

was nominated twice for the Golden Globe of Best TV

Actress and Best TV Star in the year 1965 for her role as Jeannie

on I Dream of Jeannie

Two Poems...

So i feel like i think i like writing poetry now. Not as much as i like writing stories, but poetry provides that instant satisfaction, whereas a story takes much longer, but feels so good when im done with one.

Anyways, i had CAHSEE testing two days last week. The CAHSEE is the CAlifornia High School Exit Exam... it was SUPER EASY and i had a lot of time on my hands.... so i decided to write.... so here were two poems i came up with.

I Want You to Know
writte by Briggitte on 3.14.12


Your smile,
brightens up my day,
when I see you.
Everyday.

Your eyes,
Not brown nor blue,
their own special color.
Beautiful,
stunning,
dreamy color.
One's I'd love to get lost in,
if you'd let me.
When they flick across the room,
and meet mine,
I get butterflies,
I can't help but smile,
until you or I look away.

I like watching you,
when you talk,
when you walk.
Your cute little mannerisms.

Your sweet voice,
when you talk,
when you read,
when you laugh.

I think about you.
You will never know.

I care about you.
You will never know.

I want you to know.
...........

I Don't Know
written by Briggitte on 3.14.12


When you smile,
I can't help but smile with you.
I'm mesmorized.
It's a warm smile,
a kind smile,
worn by someone who cares.
Maybe.
That beautiful smile,
hides pain.
Maybe.

Your eyes,
dark, mysterious.
Full of passion and rage,
full of hopes and dreams,
that can show lust and desire,
that can make me melt.
Such welcoming eyes,
with a hint of innocence,
that's never lost its gleam.
A place where tears are no strangers.
Let me help you.

A childish giggle,
music to my ears,
a soothing voice,
caressing and calming me,
through out the day.

I hear your words,
they mean something,
I hear your feelings,
you give me meaning.

I wonder a lot,
I think and dream.
When you're not with me,
you're never with me,
But you're always near.

What is right?
What is wrong?
I ask myself,
nobody knows the answer.

Rumors aren't always true.
I don't know.

I hope not.
I don't know.

Do I love you?
I don't know.

What's stopping me?
I don't know.

You can't tell me.
You aren't here.

I need someone to,
because,
I don't know.
...........

You know I'd love to hear what you think!

and if you're interested... I also drew this:

My Poem...

So a couple of night back I decided to right a poem....
and so here it is....

I'd love to hear what you think....

He Smiled

written by Briggitte Suastegui
February 19th, 2012


The little boy looked out of the window,
across the street to a park.
A playground,
a set of swings,
a basketball court,
he smiled.

There was a little girl with her school friends,
across the street in the park.
On the playground,
on the set of swings,
on the basketball court,
he smiled.

He watched them play,
he looked up at the sun.
What a day to be outside,
to feel the sweat rolling down your face from running too much.
But what did he know of that?
He smiled.

He touched his finger to the glass,
as the kids ran around playing tag.
He watched the basketball bounce up and down, 
he tapped the glass each time it touched the ground.
He smiled. 

Someone tapped his shoulder.
Startled, he jumped.
He wouldn't admit it,
but he jumped.
He turned around, 
he smiled.

'C'mon, you have to go back to work now',
he shook his head.
'Oh come now, I don't want to get you into trouble',
his feet were firmly planted on the ground.
'Your father will get angry...',
he felt a coldness flood throught his body,
he dropped his eyes and followed her back into the studio, but,
he smiled.

He knew it was coming,
the hardest part of the song. 
He looked at his father,
the belt menacingly resting in his hands,
the cold eyes looking straight at him.
He sang,
he hit the note,
he had escaped this time,
he was safe for now,
he smiled.

He got in the car,
and looked out of the window.
The little girl caught his eye and waved,
he waved back shyly,
unsure of what to do.
She looked at him curiously and smiled,
the car began to drive away,
he felt the tears pool in his eyes,
and to himself,
he smiled.

The bump the car went over woke him up. 
He ran his fingers through his hair and pushed it back,
he looked out of the window.

There was a park,
a playground,
a set of swings,
a basketball court.

There was a group of school kids playing,
on the playground,
on the set of swings,
on the basketball court.

He subconsciously tapped his finger,
as the basketball bounced up and down.
The ball rolled away,
the little girl ran to get it,
she caught his eye and recognized him.

She smiled and waved,
he waved back. 
She ran back excitedly to tell her friends,
he smiled.

The car pulled up to a studio,
he had work to do.
There were millions of fans outside,
he had work to do.
He took a breath and stepped outside.
He smiled.

A smile can mean a great many things.
It can express joy,
it can hide sorrow.

For one person,
one with a lost childhood,
one who had to grow up too fast,
one who worked instead of played,
one who was in constant fear,
a smile meant many things.

When he wanted to cry,
to hide the tears,
he smiled.

When he longed to play,
but had to work instead,
he smiled.

When he seemed to have pleased his father,
and escaped the belt,
he smiled.

When he didn't know what to do,
feeling confusion, hurt, or anguish,
he smiled.

He smiled. 
It was the one thing,
the only thing,
he was sure he could do.

May you rest in peace,
my angel.
Michael Joseph Jackson.
August 29th, 1958 - June 25th, 2009. 


For me, Michael is like the Marilyn to a lot of people... I've seen people say this about Marilyn, and I feel like it fits my feelings so well for Michael...
I just wish I could go back in time and just hug him. Hug him and tell him that everything will be fine. Show him that people do love him, and that no matter what else happens, I will always love him. 

Luckiest Women In The World

So I was actually thinking of this as I was walking my dog today.
I haven't blogged in a while... so I'm back!

A lot of things have been happening in my life recently so I don't want to bore you will all of that...

So anyways back to what I was saying...while I was walking I was thinking about some of the luckiest women that I know of, or at least, that I think have been lucky in their life time.

I decided to share this list with you....but not the reasons why... I've decided to save that for my next post... I'd like to see what you think about why I put each woman on here...

So if you think you know why I put one on this list...comment away!

note: These women may have had hard lives, but when I add them on this list I mean that at one point in their life they've been the luckiest women in the world.

Luckiest Women In The World

Lucille Ball

Linda Gray

Barbara Eden

Vanessa Paradis

Tatiana Thumbtzen

Lauren Bacall

Jacqueline Bouvier 

Jeanne Martin

Ethel Skakel

Okay that's it for now...those are all of the ones I can think up off of the top of my head... 

Tell me watcha think!

Stars That Will Never Fade

Why I Chose This Picture: I love it when people, singers especially,
are concentrated in what they are doing...

Name: Frank Sinatra

Real Name: Francis Albert Sinatra

Occupation: Singer, Actor, Producer, Director, Conductor

DOB/DOD: December 12th, 1915- May 14th, 1998

Fun Fact: When Bela Lugosi died virtually penniless, 

Frank quietly payed for his funeral

Quote: (On Ava Gardner) I love her and God damn me for it.

Academy Awards: Was nominated for four awards by the Academy, 

Won for Best Supporting Actor in From Here To Eternity (1954), Won 

the Honorary Award for The House I Live In (1946), and won The

Jean Hersholt Humanitarian Award (1970), and was nominated for Best Actor

his role in The Man With The Golden Arm (1955)

Finals Are Over, Elementary School, and Landa...

Hello! Hello!
I hope you are doing well...I know I haven't been on in a while, but I have been busy...

FINALS ARE OVER!!!!! *whoot whoot* 
GUESS WHO'S HAPPY?  hahaha I am!
and i think i did pretty darn well with them!
so far I know my grades are 2 A's, 1 A-'s, and one B+... two more classes to see the grades of...
im happy right now...and so relieved...really so very relieved....

so after finals on Friday, we got out at 12:35 so my friend and I walked over to her house, walked over to get frozen yogurt, and then walked over to our elementary school.... i has been 5 years since we graduated and everything really looked the same, just smaller... it was such an experience going back and seeing some of my old teachers and the school and realizing how much time had actually passed...it was kinda frightening... ahaha
anyways, afterwards we walked to this Italian...or rather as Jerry Lewis would say, Itrralian... market where i had this really delicious chocolate canoli... :D and then we walked back to her house...
oh yeah, with all that walking, my feet were DEAD....

Okay and as for the title of this post.... Landa...
some of you....a lot of you.... probably dont know what that means... .
well.....
it all started this past summer....

It started with the show Dallas...no! actually it didnt.. it originally started with I Dream of Jeannie... because I think Barbara Eden and Larry Hagman make one of the cutest couples ever... i think they are perfect for each other... so my friend, Courtney, and I came up with this whole secret life thing...but it never really materialized...until i started watching Dallas and read Larry's book and realized that Larry and Linda Gray are meant for each other... as in... MEANT FOR EACH OTHER ... 
well to me it felt like there was so much evidence that they really did love each other... but i mean of course they were both married to different people at the time of the show and Larry is still married to his wife, Maj, and Linda's divorced but anyways, they have the most beautiful friendship.. and love...
but now im just going on and on about that.. lemme explain Landa...
Courtney, the genius she is, came up with one of those couple names... you know like Desilu, and said that Larry and Linda would be Landa... and it just stuck...
so every time we find something that has them being all cute and couple-y, we call it like Landa...or Landa moments or things like that...

for example:

the besties...

best friends for over how many years?
er.. lets see Dallas was in 1978...its
2012...that's 34 years!

and for the next couple... well notice how they're always holding hands.........
its great! i love them so much, and so last night at the SAG Awards they presented with their other co-star Patrick Duffy, and lo and behold.... at one point Larry and Linda are holding hands on stage after presenting the award... :D

hmmm??? im just saying
that that does not look like its for a
scene on camera.... XD 

point is... i love them...<3

Stars That Will Never Fade

Why I Chose This Picture: Well I don't know, he looks
so concentrated on what he's doing, and he loved
being behind the camera...

Name: Larry Hagman

Real Name: Larry Martin Hagman

Occupation: Actor, Director, Producer, Singer (sorta)

DOB/DOD: September 21st, 1931 

Fun Fact: He is the son of Broadway legend, Mary Martin,

who played Peter Pan and Nellie from South Pacific onstage

Quote: its a tie between: Barbara Eden is the most beautiful girl in the world

and [about co-star Linda Gray after her divorce] Maj and I kind of adopter her. She was here

at the house nearly every day. We'd call her first thing in the morning to make

sure she was alright, we'd make sure she had dinner every night.

Academy Awards: No Academy Awards, but was nominated numerous

times for other awards, and won for the portrayal of JR Ewing

from Dallas